
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Surprises in the Heartfelt Department

Friday, February 11, 2011
Dear John
I gave too much credit to the story
Of why you weren’t present in my life
I didn’t realize at the time
You were poison of the bitterest kind
You left me to feel
Underestimated
Underappreciated
Under rug swept
You left me to feel
Unworthy
Ungood
Undeserving
What’s a girl to do with that?
How’s this girl supposed to feel?
And you wonder why I won’t
Why I’ll never call you dad.
You can be so lethal
Words slice like blades
It’s all about you
All the time and I’m tired of it
Could you ever see me?
Could you ever look beyond you?
Your tunnel vision is making me crazy
Your stories ever changing
I have had enough
Why must you always
Did your claws in so deep
Why is it I lack the ability
To make you understand
Do you even see me?
Do you have a clue who I am?
Allow me to introduce you
To the girl you left in 1982
I’m the girl who can’t believe anyone
I’m the girl who doubts everything
The queen of second-guessing
Nothing I do will ever be good enough
Dear John,
I kick my own ass
No one can beat me down
Quite like I can
I pick myself apart
I worry the world I know
Will soon fall out
From under my feet
For me to thrive
For me to survive
It’s time to cut the cord
It’s time to let go
Every time, every single time
You verbally beat me down
You tear me apart
Those days are over
It’s time for me to move
To put one foot in front of the other
To leave the past in the past
It’s time to bid farewell
I forgive you
But I must move past you
If there's a shred
Of hope for me to grow