Kelli Through the Looking Glass: The Release Sessions
Sunday, September 9, 2012
Seventy-Three
Monday, August 6, 2012
Tomorrow
Saturday, May 12, 2012
Guardian
Being a mother is the toughest and yet most rewarding responsibility a woman can face. This small face looks to you for everything, every need, love, guidance, etc. I believe that our maternal instincts reach beyond our own children. Whether these instincts touch the children of our nonnuclear families, children we meet in passing, or those we never encounter, our need, desire, craving to protect them is held sacred in the core of our humanity.
As I listened to "Guardian" my mind wandered to thoughts of children I will never meet, children whose lives are traumatically lived and exposed to the most disgusting atrocities. These are the children that I pray will be helped by our efforts through Stop Child Trafficking Now (SCTNow www.SCTNow.org).
Music reaches people on different levels, and songs have different meanings, perceptions to every single person who lets the words soak into their heart. For me, "Guardian" speaks to me as a story of someone who has been through hell and back, the people who weren't there for them, and the people who made the brave decision to stand up for them and offer comfort as their guardian. The chorus especially speaks to me and encourages me on a level I never anticipated.
I feel compelled to do more for victims of sex trafficking in conjunction with fighting the demand by volunteering with SCTNow. To be there for these people who have been broken by those who couldn't care less. To be uplifting. To think beyond what people tell me I am capable of doing. To be present and active in changing lives one step at a time. To be a guardian.
xoxo,
Kelli
GUARDIAN
By: Alanis Morissette
You, you who has smiled when you’re in pain
You who has soldiered through the profane
They were distracted and shut down
So why, why would you talk to me at all
such words were dishonorable and in vain
their promise as solid as a fog
and where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
you, you in the chaos feigning sane
You who has pushed beyond what’s humane
Them as the ghostly tumbleweed
And where was your watchman then
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
now no more smiling mid crestfall
No more managing unmanageables
No more holding still in the hailstorm
Now enter your watchwoman
I’ll be your keeper for life as your guardian
I’ll be your warrior of care your first warden
I’ll be your angel on call, I’ll be on demand
The greatest honor of all, as your guardian
Sunday, May 22, 2011
My Letter to TN State Senator Stacey Campfield
I am e-mailing you in response to the “Don’t Say Gay” bill. While I appreciate your passion for protecting students, this matter is not one that I can say I agree with you in the slightest manner.
First let me start off with telling you a story. It was 1993 and I was a 6th grade student at New Providence Middle School in Clarksville, Tennessee. As you are well aware, the AIDS epidemic was fiercely on the rise at this time. I will never forget going to the school’s open house with my mother, and my science teacher, Mrs. James, telling the parents that she would have to have permission from all of them to talk about AIDS in the classroom. All of the parents were ok with that…all but one. At the end of our meeting with the teacher, one of my classmate’s parents told the teacher that she didn’t feel such topics were appropriate for the classroom, and that this was “truly an issue for gay people only.” I cried when I left the open house that day. I was 11 years old and I knew what she said was not true, and her ignorance was depriving us of the ability to be properly educated on the subject. That year Mrs. James did not teach about AIDS because of one parent’s ignorance of the subject.
My reason for telling you that story is several fold. We now are well aware that AIDS is not just a “gay issue.” AIDS affects individuals of every race, sexual orientation, religious affiliation and creed. It is not a biased virus. However, because one individual chose not to educate herself properly about the illness, many children were not allowed to learn about it. While I am still bothered by that day, I am thankful to this woman. If it were not for her ignorance, I would not be such an advocate for the rights of all, including those of the LGBT community.
It is out of sheer ignorance that we were denied proper education of a very serious matter, and the bill you have proposed does the very same thing. You are denying the children of Tennessee the right to learn about what it means to accept others, and you are essentially breeding more hate in an already fragile community of students.
It is hard being different. It’s even more difficult to be different when the state says you cannot discuss your differences. You cannot talk to your guidance counselor about being gay. What if the only stability a child has is their teacher?
Your bill does nothing but further fuel the fire of hate and further deprive our young children proper education and skills that will help them understand that no matter our differences we are all people deserving equality.
I am fully aware that educating teachers on how to properly teach and or counsel students about homosexuality will take time, but it is worthwhile. I also understand that you’re concerned that teachers are already overloaded with math, science and English. We teach to a test. Whether you choose to admit it or not, that is in essence what we do in the state of Tennessee. Why not make the investment to teach to the test of life? These are skills that children will carry with them throughout their lives, both socially and professionally. Furthermore, to address your concern that a teacher might “do more harm than good” when addressing the subject of homosexuality, why not make this a part of guidance class? My son has guidance at least once every other week, and nothing would make me happier than knowing that he is learning social skills that he will carry with him for the rest of his life.
Also on the subject of teachers potentially doing “more harm than good,” if there is a teacher that is so ignorant and expresses such a lack of control that he or she cannot keep their personal feelings out of the classroom, than they need to be counseled and/or removed from their position. The classroom is not the place for a teacher’s biased opinion. Teachers cannot teach my child that one religion is better than another, or that one race is greater than another no matter their personal feelings. I think it is time that we add no sexual orientation is greater than another to that list.
I am also aware that you have made mention of the anti-bullying legislation in your arguments that students are protected from bullying because of this bill. To my knowledge, the anti-bullying campaign is not available in all schools. My son’s school just started it this year, and I know that last year there were only three or four schools in Montgomery County that it was made available to.
The anti-bullying campaign educates students about being responsible and respectful, however it cannot stop bullying. It can attempt to prevent it, but it cannot stop it. While I understand that you co-sponsored the anti-bullying legislation, you have just sponsored a bill that contradicts it. At a time when the suicide rates of our young people are growing each day because of bullying, I cannot believe that you would even consider proposing such legislation.
Whether you are for or against the rights of the LGBT community, one matter that is ridiculously obvious is that you have shamelessly ignored separation between church and state. I understand that you are a Christian. I am a Christian as well, and I find it deeply disturbing that while we are called to love others as ourselves, you would propose legislation that promotes ignorance, misinformation and hate. Your bill is making it obvious to the rest of the world that Tennessee has missed the mark, that we are behind the rest of the country in our educational practices and that we are not concerned with the well-being of LGBT children, or children who come from LGBT homes.
I want more than anything to be proud of the state that I live in, but this simply isn’t possible if we continue to wallow in our ignorance of the LGBT community. It is my hope, and ultimately my prayer, that we will live out Mark 12:28-31 and love our neighbors as ourselves. With your proposed legislation, we are denying our teachers the right to speak freely and answer our children’s questions. This will only result in continued ignorance and intolerance of the LGBT members of our society.
Sincerely,
Kelli Faerber
Saturday, February 19, 2011
Surprises in the Heartfelt Department
Friday, February 11, 2011
Dear John
I gave too much credit to the story
Of why you weren’t present in my life
I didn’t realize at the time
You were poison of the bitterest kind
You left me to feel
Underestimated
Underappreciated
Under rug swept
You left me to feel
Unworthy
Ungood
Undeserving
What’s a girl to do with that?
How’s this girl supposed to feel?
And you wonder why I won’t
Why I’ll never call you dad.
You can be so lethal
Words slice like blades
It’s all about you
All the time and I’m tired of it
Could you ever see me?
Could you ever look beyond you?
Your tunnel vision is making me crazy
Your stories ever changing
I have had enough
Why must you always
Did your claws in so deep
Why is it I lack the ability
To make you understand
Do you even see me?
Do you have a clue who I am?
Allow me to introduce you
To the girl you left in 1982
I’m the girl who can’t believe anyone
I’m the girl who doubts everything
The queen of second-guessing
Nothing I do will ever be good enough
Dear John,
I kick my own ass
No one can beat me down
Quite like I can
I pick myself apart
I worry the world I know
Will soon fall out
From under my feet
For me to thrive
For me to survive
It’s time to cut the cord
It’s time to let go
Every time, every single time
You verbally beat me down
You tear me apart
Those days are over
It’s time for me to move
To put one foot in front of the other
To leave the past in the past
It’s time to bid farewell
I forgive you
But I must move past you
If there's a shred
Of hope for me to grow